N Sunday, February 12, 2006
why should i bother so much when you dont-the difference lies in the answer that i already gave myself.i never liked white templates because it becomes really boring after some while. but looks like i've found one that i can stare at it over and over again without getting
"sian" of it. hahas. well, at least for now ! until i get tired of it, you wont see another one. its how surprising to see myself being able to change into this template without much thinking and consideration (because i usually think alot on whether i should change the template) . hahas.
i'll be restricted from tmr night onwards. i'll really miss the days like now. 3am in the morning and i still get to use the com plus the feeling of being able to have a room of "my own". sighs, maybe in this way then i'll see some changes in my lifestyle.
i dont know whats wrong with me, what has came over me that i get affected so easily. i have too many things bothering deep inside me that i cant stop thinking of and its eating me up. im in the midst of downs and i really hope to pull myself up once again. ):
all these stupid feelings in me has caused me to offend someone (on friday) that i really cherish as a friend. she really is, a wonderful friend. but you know how sometimes a misunderstanding can cause a sour friendship ? i hope she'll read this and know that im sorry.
AND most importantly ! is to let me know that she has read this by sending me a message (:
sometimes i do things i regret because it makes me end up only looking stupid. i think i need to stop all emotions from flowing and to numb myself. i really see the need to,
but can i ?i cant wait to see how my valentine is being spend. hahas.
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